I have to be quick. I am working on some art work. I need all the practice I can get because I am making it a goal to be the best that I can be. Tom likes me painting and drawing because it gets me away from the computer.
Yesterday Tom went bed shopping. I told him to find one and have it ready when I got home from work. He did. We have been sleeping on the floor for over three years. On a mattress and then on a hide-a-bed. Now we actually have a real bed. I just don't know how to act now. I am still in awe.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Bisexuality - It Does Exist!
Today at work Ruth started going on about how there is no such thing as bisexual. (Isn't the first time she said it.) (I am sick of hearing it from her.) She says that a true gay person will tell you that. Her sister his gay and says it. I have to roll my eyes up at this. There is such a thing as bisexual. Bi means two, like a bicycle. Being bisexual means you like both genders. Male and female. Yes it is possible to like both genders. I gave Ruth a scenario of a person sleeping with both genders and she replied that they are in denial. That you either are gay or you are not and if you sleep with the other gender then you are not being real with yourself. I also gave her a scenario and said, "Oh. So If I slept with another woman I would still be straight." She said no. That I would be gay. She contradicted what she was saying. WHATEVER!! Bi is bi. You are still gay but you like both genders and you really can like both genders. That being said.....*raspberry*
Here are some links on the subject of bisexuals.
(I am so right!! In your face Ruth!!!) *raspberry*
http://www.uua.org/obgltc/resource/bi101.html
BISEXUALITY IS LEGITIMATE. Non-bisexual persons sometimes assume that bisexuals are "really heterosexual" or "really homosexual" and cannot make up their minds, or that bisexual persons are merely curious. Though this phenomenon may be true for some, it is not a necessary or typical characteristic of bisexual people.
http://web.indstate.edu/community/TeenTH/bisexmyths.html
MYTH:Bisexuals are denying their lesbianism or gayness.
TRUTH: Bisexuality is a legitimate sexual orientation which incorporates gayness. Most bisexuals consider themselves part of the generic term "gay." Many are quite active in the gay community, both socially and politically. Some use terms such as "bisexual lesbian" to increase visibility on both issues.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bisexuality
DescriptionBisexual orientation can fall anywhere between the two extremes of homosexuality and heterosexuality; a bisexual person is not necessarily attracted equally to both genders, and many tend to prefer one or the other. Another view of bisexuality is that homosexuality and heterosexuality are two monosexual orientations, whereas bisexuality encompasses them both. However, some argue that bisexuality is a legitimate sexual orientation in its own right.
Individuals attracted to both males and females, like people of any other orientation, may live a variety of sexual lifestyles. These include: lifelong monogamy, serial monogamy, polyamory, polyfidelity, casual sexual activity with individual partners, casual group sex, and celibacy. For those with more than one sexual partner, these may or may not be all be of the same gender.
Some bisexual people consider themselves to be gay or lesbian -- for example, a bisexual woman who considers herself a lesbian may do so on the basis that a lesbian might be defined as any woman who is attracted to women (even one who is also attracted to men), or a woman who is primarily attracted to other women. Some lesbian and gay people object, asserting that exclusivity is part of the definition. Other bisexuals consider themselves distinct from homosexuals but part of the larger LGBT or queer community. Some bisexuals may be supportive of lesbian and gay people, but still consider themselves straight, and still others consider any labels irrelevant to their situations.
http://miperson.netfirms.com/bimyths.htm
Myth: Bisexuality doesn't really exist. People who consider themselves bisexuals are going through a phase/ confused/ undecided/ fence sitting. Ultimately they'll settle down and realize they're actually homosexual or heterosexual.
Reality: Some people go through a transitional period of bisexuality on their way to adopting a lesbian/gay or heterosexual identity. For many others bisexuality remains a long-term orientation. For some bisexuals, homosexuality was a transitional phase in their coming out as bisexuals. Many bisexuals may well be confused, living in a society where their sexuality is denied by homosexuals and heterosexuals alike, but that confusion is a function of oppression. Fence-sitting is a misnomer; there is no "fence" between homosexuality and heterosexuality except in the minds of people who rigidly divide the two.
Myth: Bisexuality doesn't really exist. People who consider themselves bisexuals are actually lesbian/gay, but haven't fully accepted themselves and finished coming out of the closet (acknowledging their attraction to people of the same gender.)
Reality: Bisexuality is a legitimate sexual orientation. Many bisexuals are completely out of the closet, but not on the lesbian/gay community's terms. (It is worth noting that many lesbians and gay men are not completely out of the closet and their process is generally respected; it is also worth noting that the lesbian/gay community whose "terms" are in question here has tended to be quite different for working class lesbians, gays of color, etc.) Bisexuals in this country share with lesbians and gays the debilitating experience of heterosexism (the assumption that everyone is heterosexual and thereby rendering other sexual identities invisible) and homophobia (the hatred, fear, and discrimination against homosexuals.)
http://www.ccsu.edu/healthservice/General%20Information/MythsOfBisexuality.htm
Myth: Bisexuals are denying their lesbianism or gayness.
Truth: Bisexuality is a legitimate sexual orientation, which incorporates gayness. Most bisexuals consider themselves part of the generic term "gay." Many are quite active in the gay community, both socially and politically. Some of us use terms such as "bisexual lesbian" to increase our visibility on both issues.
Myth: Bisexuals are confused about their sexuality.
Truth: It is natural for both bisexuals and gays to go through a period of confusion in the coming-out process. When you are an oppressed people and are constantly told that you don’t exist, confusion is an appropriate reaction until you come out to yourself and find a supportive environment.
**It is important to remember that bisexual, gay, lesbian, and heterosexual are labels created by a homophobic, biphobic, heterosexist society to separate and alienate us from each other. We are all unique; we don’t fit into neat little categories. We sometimes need to use these labels for political reasons and to increase our visibilities. Our sexual esteem is facilitated by acknowledging and accepting the differences and seeing the beauty in our diversity.
Here are some links on the subject of bisexuals.
(I am so right!! In your face Ruth!!!) *raspberry*
http://www.uua.org/obgltc/resource/bi101.html
BISEXUALITY IS LEGITIMATE. Non-bisexual persons sometimes assume that bisexuals are "really heterosexual" or "really homosexual" and cannot make up their minds, or that bisexual persons are merely curious. Though this phenomenon may be true for some, it is not a necessary or typical characteristic of bisexual people.
http://web.indstate.edu/community/TeenTH/bisexmyths.html
MYTH:Bisexuals are denying their lesbianism or gayness.
TRUTH: Bisexuality is a legitimate sexual orientation which incorporates gayness. Most bisexuals consider themselves part of the generic term "gay." Many are quite active in the gay community, both socially and politically. Some use terms such as "bisexual lesbian" to increase visibility on both issues.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bisexuality
DescriptionBisexual orientation can fall anywhere between the two extremes of homosexuality and heterosexuality; a bisexual person is not necessarily attracted equally to both genders, and many tend to prefer one or the other. Another view of bisexuality is that homosexuality and heterosexuality are two monosexual orientations, whereas bisexuality encompasses them both. However, some argue that bisexuality is a legitimate sexual orientation in its own right.
Individuals attracted to both males and females, like people of any other orientation, may live a variety of sexual lifestyles. These include: lifelong monogamy, serial monogamy, polyamory, polyfidelity, casual sexual activity with individual partners, casual group sex, and celibacy. For those with more than one sexual partner, these may or may not be all be of the same gender.
Some bisexual people consider themselves to be gay or lesbian -- for example, a bisexual woman who considers herself a lesbian may do so on the basis that a lesbian might be defined as any woman who is attracted to women (even one who is also attracted to men), or a woman who is primarily attracted to other women. Some lesbian and gay people object, asserting that exclusivity is part of the definition. Other bisexuals consider themselves distinct from homosexuals but part of the larger LGBT or queer community. Some bisexuals may be supportive of lesbian and gay people, but still consider themselves straight, and still others consider any labels irrelevant to their situations.
http://miperson.netfirms.com/bimyths.htm
Myth: Bisexuality doesn't really exist. People who consider themselves bisexuals are going through a phase/ confused/ undecided/ fence sitting. Ultimately they'll settle down and realize they're actually homosexual or heterosexual.
Reality: Some people go through a transitional period of bisexuality on their way to adopting a lesbian/gay or heterosexual identity. For many others bisexuality remains a long-term orientation. For some bisexuals, homosexuality was a transitional phase in their coming out as bisexuals. Many bisexuals may well be confused, living in a society where their sexuality is denied by homosexuals and heterosexuals alike, but that confusion is a function of oppression. Fence-sitting is a misnomer; there is no "fence" between homosexuality and heterosexuality except in the minds of people who rigidly divide the two.
Myth: Bisexuality doesn't really exist. People who consider themselves bisexuals are actually lesbian/gay, but haven't fully accepted themselves and finished coming out of the closet (acknowledging their attraction to people of the same gender.)
Reality: Bisexuality is a legitimate sexual orientation. Many bisexuals are completely out of the closet, but not on the lesbian/gay community's terms. (It is worth noting that many lesbians and gay men are not completely out of the closet and their process is generally respected; it is also worth noting that the lesbian/gay community whose "terms" are in question here has tended to be quite different for working class lesbians, gays of color, etc.) Bisexuals in this country share with lesbians and gays the debilitating experience of heterosexism (the assumption that everyone is heterosexual and thereby rendering other sexual identities invisible) and homophobia (the hatred, fear, and discrimination against homosexuals.)
http://www.ccsu.edu/healthservice/General%20Information/MythsOfBisexuality.htm
Myth: Bisexuals are denying their lesbianism or gayness.
Truth: Bisexuality is a legitimate sexual orientation, which incorporates gayness. Most bisexuals consider themselves part of the generic term "gay." Many are quite active in the gay community, both socially and politically. Some of us use terms such as "bisexual lesbian" to increase our visibility on both issues.
Myth: Bisexuals are confused about their sexuality.
Truth: It is natural for both bisexuals and gays to go through a period of confusion in the coming-out process. When you are an oppressed people and are constantly told that you don’t exist, confusion is an appropriate reaction until you come out to yourself and find a supportive environment.
**It is important to remember that bisexual, gay, lesbian, and heterosexual are labels created by a homophobic, biphobic, heterosexist society to separate and alienate us from each other. We are all unique; we don’t fit into neat little categories. We sometimes need to use these labels for political reasons and to increase our visibilities. Our sexual esteem is facilitated by acknowledging and accepting the differences and seeing the beauty in our diversity.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Black Squirrel Phenomenon
I have finally gotten pictures of the black squirrels that live down the road from us. I have been trying to get pictures of them for quite some time now. We saw them out playing the evening when we came home. So I walked down with my camera. The lady that lives down at the edge of the road came out and talked to be. She said she had gotten them from a guy in greenfield back in 2003. She started out with two and they had a litter but last year no one really got to see them. This year they had another and were out more often. She is so proud of them too. It made her happy that I was taking pictures of them and that people stop to see them.
I have been looking up the info on these black squirrels and it turns out that they aren't really new. Just new to my area. As they would be in any area in the united states because they come from Canada. So here is a link. http://www.roadsideamerica.com/set/squirrelsblack.html and my pictures of course....
I have been looking up the info on these black squirrels and it turns out that they aren't really new. Just new to my area. As they would be in any area in the united states because they come from Canada. So here is a link. http://www.roadsideamerica.com/set/squirrelsblack.html and my pictures of course....
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Time Out!
I have not been getting on the computer as much anymore. I also have not been logging in to my yahoo messenger or been writing in my journals like I normally do. I have not been logging in at grab.com either. I am isolating myself from the computer world. That also includes family and friends. I feel that it is the best thing that I can do for myself at this time. Because I need me time. Private time. And this seems to be working. I am feeling more myself and closer with myself. Like seeing an old friend that you have not seen in a long time. Or visiting a town that you once grew up in and have not been in for many years. It is a good feeling. A familiar feeling. And because of this feeling I feel good. For the first time in a long time (since I got my lap top) I feel like my old self. I only hope that it gets even better and that I don't take two steps back. So I will continue to isolate myself from the computer world until this dark cloud has been lifted from my soul. During this time I will also be working on my sketching skills. I will post updates every now and again. I love you all in computer world and I am sure to miss you. Wish me good luck.
*Blows kisses at screen.*
*Blows kisses at screen.*
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Believe In Yourself
We are going to have Thanksgiving at my sister's. On thanksgiving day even. It will just be mom and dad there but me and Tom. The food will even be better because it mom and Amy are doing the cooking. Amy wants me to cook something too. Yeah right. Me cook? But I am sure I can figure out something to fix that is simple and good. Maybe baked beans with chunks of hot dogs in it. Or green beans with chunks of bacon. Or I could just simple my a family TV dinner of mac & cheese. Just heat it up and put it in a nice plastic bowl. I doubt that I do the last one.
Now that Thanksgiving is on. Or sort of on. Now we have two places to go for Thanksgiving. My sister's and Tom's mom's house. I would rather not go to his mom's but then that would be unfair. I told Tom that we would go over to his mother's real early. He agreed. But I am not going to eat much. For one, I know I am not going to like what she has. Secondly. I know that whatever it is that she is fixing isn't going to be much. And thirdly. I want to be hungry for the food at my family's gathering.
Last night was sick. I thought I was dying. I don't know if it was the flu or just gas but I threw up in the process. Nice huh? I stayed home from work today. My stomach still refuse to keep anything down. But I feel ok now. Maybe a little ickish but I am dealing.
Now that Thanksgiving is on. Or sort of on. Now we have two places to go for Thanksgiving. My sister's and Tom's mom's house. I would rather not go to his mom's but then that would be unfair. I told Tom that we would go over to his mother's real early. He agreed. But I am not going to eat much. For one, I know I am not going to like what she has. Secondly. I know that whatever it is that she is fixing isn't going to be much. And thirdly. I want to be hungry for the food at my family's gathering.
Last night was sick. I thought I was dying. I don't know if it was the flu or just gas but I threw up in the process. Nice huh? I stayed home from work today. My stomach still refuse to keep anything down. But I feel ok now. Maybe a little ickish but I am dealing.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Steam
Halloween is over. Thanksgiving is just around the corner. Or at least for some. My family won't be having it this year. They have moved it to the weekend. So it is still Thanksgiving but not on the right day. All because my grandma couldn't get the fellowship building. A building that is only rented out to those who go to the church across the street from it. That's beside the point. The point is, you can't have Thanksgiving on any day but the day it is marked on the calendar for. I know I am being a spoiled brat about this. But we have always had Thanksgiving on Thanksgiving like the rest of the world. Most people get that day off too. So now I am suppose to take an extra day off to have Thanksgiving on a day that isn't Thanksgiving. My sister had Thanksgiving off but not the Saturday that they have moved it too. My sister never gets Thanksgiving off and the one year she does.....*sigh* Ahh, fuck it.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
disappointment
Monday, October 31, 2005
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
Mwahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, a strange thing indeed happened today. The kitty cats reportedly got to spend about 7 hours together without killing each other. The spray bottle I bought changed everything. They get a little too rough, they get sprayed and separate immediately. Easiest way to keep them in line while letting them spend time getting used to each other. Turns out they LOVE each other. They even bathed each other and slept together, which is what they're doing now.
This makes me so happy. I was concerned we'd never be able to let them hang out together and that Cleo would destroy all the carpet underneath the bedroom door. Now, they can be out together [as long as we're here] with limited supervision. I don't want to completely leave them alone together yet but I think we're closer to that goal. Curling up on the sofa to sleep together without being put there is certainly an encouraging start.
posted by the orange guru @ 11:20 PM 0 comments
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005
the worst halloween prank ever
well, I was sure fooled. these cats are never gonna be able to be left alone together. after a lengthy staredown between cat and kitten, a weird vibe developed between the two of them. then, Cleo went nuts. she started making these awful noises and going after Sabbath. they got behind the stereo and I went after them to break it up. he began to scream with fear but I got her before she could get to him. she clawed the shit out of me and I fumbled her. I finally got good hold of her and then she got me, right in the face. I screamed. Brad rescued Sabbath and put him in the bedroom while I tried to detach Cleo from my face. The profuse bleeding is under control now and I have finally stopped shaking. Brad called a vet who told us we have to start over. tell that to the bedroom carpet.
dare I ask, What now?
posted by the orange guru @ 12:24 PM 0 comments
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
Mwahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, a strange thing indeed happened today. The kitty cats reportedly got to spend about 7 hours together without killing each other. The spray bottle I bought changed everything. They get a little too rough, they get sprayed and separate immediately. Easiest way to keep them in line while letting them spend time getting used to each other. Turns out they LOVE each other. They even bathed each other and slept together, which is what they're doing now.
This makes me so happy. I was concerned we'd never be able to let them hang out together and that Cleo would destroy all the carpet underneath the bedroom door. Now, they can be out together [as long as we're here] with limited supervision. I don't want to completely leave them alone together yet but I think we're closer to that goal. Curling up on the sofa to sleep together without being put there is certainly an encouraging start.
posted by the orange guru @ 11:20 PM 0 comments
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005
the worst halloween prank ever
well, I was sure fooled. these cats are never gonna be able to be left alone together. after a lengthy staredown between cat and kitten, a weird vibe developed between the two of them. then, Cleo went nuts. she started making these awful noises and going after Sabbath. they got behind the stereo and I went after them to break it up. he began to scream with fear but I got her before she could get to him. she clawed the shit out of me and I fumbled her. I finally got good hold of her and then she got me, right in the face. I screamed. Brad rescued Sabbath and put him in the bedroom while I tried to detach Cleo from my face. The profuse bleeding is under control now and I have finally stopped shaking. Brad called a vet who told us we have to start over. tell that to the bedroom carpet.
dare I ask, What now?
posted by the orange guru @ 12:24 PM 0 comments
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